Yes, I have been re-watching season 1 of Spartacus with Andy Whitfield on Netflix, and so the post title  comes from the pivotal episode for the “Bringer of Rain” where he assumes the role of champion of Capua. I only ever watch season 1, and I do so with a touch of sadness over the loss of Andy Whitfield. I am, however, happy to have contributed to the initial Kickstarter campaign “Be Here Now” (and from the website it looks like they may still be raising funds, if you are so inclined.) But other than a vague feeling of very distant kinship to that episode, that now is perhaps a pivotal time in my life, discussion of the show is not why we’re here.

I suppose that most blogs begin with a purpose, maybe to educate, to inform, or to entertain. While I aspire to those things, I fear that this will be a more of a journey to determine which, if any, that this will turn out to be.

Like most of us, I want to create a meaningful life. And, like many of us, I don’t know yet, just how or what that will look like. I’m not one of those people who seem to have been born knowing or discovering their purpose at a young age. I have had my moments, times in my life when things seemed to click, and I didn’t stop to think about what I was doing, if this was (or wasn’t) it and it felt like maybe it was purpose, or closely related to it. That was a good thing. I just want those momentary glimpses to turn into something more prevalent and sustaining.

I do believe that while for some people it’s about discovering yourself or who you are, for others it’s rather more about creating yourself. I didn’t always understand this though, and it’s taken many years of meditating, thinking, and searching for signs to come to this realization. It also feels a bit… empowering, I suppose is the word, to think that you have a say in creating who you become.  Yet, it’s also tinged with regret that I didn’t realize this years ago, then figure out my “who”, and put my whole heart into that. Still, we wouldn’t be who we are today without the experiences that’s shaped us, so it’s best to look at those as just part of the puzzle, or steps along the way. It’s what had to happen.

So this is going to be a sharing of experiences (hopefully yours to me as much as me to you), an exploration of thoughts and an analysis of ideas as we see where the road takes us.  The focus this week is about not starting over – again. It’s about commitment and follow through. It’s about doing something today, tomorrow, and this week that my future self will thank me for.

And now, let’s begin.